I started with Christ in my life since I was a kid,
though I didn’t understand Him, and my emotions just hid,
letting all the kids just pick on me, and get to me, letting their thoughts start consuming me.
I let myself go and tried to do what they do,
all I wanted was acceptance, but to myself I didn’t remain true.
I let God down with all my choices cuz’ instead of listening to Him, I tuned into the voices,
And the noises that would keep on getting to me, throwing me down,
Causing me to throw up everyday in the morning,
I was crying, and this feeling was inside of me,
Dividing me from what God wanted to do to use me.
So when I got to the point of taking no more, this girl she hurt me, stole my innocence,
I hit the floor, crying out, bowing down, so much going on inside my heart,
I didn’t understand why I didn’t seek God from the start.
So I gave my life, I give it again everyday, to the One who longs to save me,
And to the Holy One I pray. He gave me new dreams, new life, new meaning,
He took away my throwing up, and His love is what I’m seeing.
It comes on me, crashing down like a wave,
Consuming me in all the truths that He has to say,
Now He’s taking me, molding me, consuming me with all these things I couldn’t see.
Cuz’ now I wanna reach out, tell the world all about, the One who saved me,
and raised me past the bar of anything considered “normal”.
I am His and He is mine, I’m never letting go,
How can you let go of something that so drastically changes your soul?
You can’t.
